How does the new Robbie Williams song go? 'I am beautiful, i am magical' the affirmations are there.
There's an unknown, ugly singer FKA Twigs who actually said 'Emotional abuse can be tender'. Go fuck yourself. I'll stick with Twiggy.
Like a mobile feel more unblocked..you'll be unbarred.
Sat morning was up at 4.10am and was up with friends till 3.55am. Had a Maccas in Liverpool St station at 5.10am; 'what have you got?' at this time..a filet o fish was fine. So the first train out was at 5.20am; yes i was ready to start my day and i saw some people going back from a night out. For four hours morning till lunchtime was doing installation, setup of a popup. Lifting; liked the relentless workout. This was behind the scenes; couldn't be bothered to face punters this time. There was setup five days earlier on Mon; so Stoke then Norwich was great.
Sadie met up with me for the afternoon. Went to a place called Trowse; drop trowse now. Been going to Norwich for nine years now with various circles. Both train journeys last were £18 return. Slightly arduous return journey Sat evening. A replacement bus from Witham, Essex. My friend's do started at 7pm; getting there for just after 9pm meant i stayed for the afterparty. This was a do a la carte. There was a pot chilli con carne with the emphasis on chilli.
Thurs went to a birthday in Battersea; out till after midnight with a 7am start the next day. Glad for the 3pm finish on Fri.
Wed went to a brewers presentation in Balham; knew Becky from before. There was some afters too; vibrant night.
Tues a Crowdfunding event in Herne Hill.
Mon was on the tube 5.20am for a 6.20am train to Stoke. We did 9.30-3.30 and the work was pretty much done. Left Stoke 5.30pm; not a bad scene there now..inspired by Manchester. Was back in London before 8pm.

Trains are cancelled and delayed; morning and evening..late both ways. My phone company are incompetent.
Clearing out the past deadwood; takes a while-but you feel better. And it gives space to let the new good stuff in.

Chilled Sunday; the sun is shining. No regrets. You are my shard of light. Listening to deep house while i take stock. I'd burn out all the stars for you.

I say the things people don't like; inconvenient truths..oh yes there is that detail.

Forgotten dreams.

I read about an 8 year old Jewish boy who was racially abused and beaten up in Stamford Hill; then he ran crying home..i got so upset. Imagine how he felt, I just wanted to hold him.

I went to collect a friend from a mainline station the other day and it was one of the best days; you're supposed to collect your own family, loved ones not just collect your folks. People don't understand what is important to you; employers don't, family don't. Somewhere along the line you can't listen to others- but to yourself or life will leave you long behind. There is just no comprehension; they think they have problems, hopes-what about yours? They will always think their things are more important. To the stalker; no means no.

Manic weekend. Nice walk yesterday from Abbeville Village, Clapham to Barrio, Brixton. There was an Ed Sheeran lookalike. We were musing a curry or a steak but opted for Rodizio Brazilian bbq; meats to the table and cheated with salad.
Sometimes a project is a bit too expansive but it's still worth a go. You learn in other ways. The main point is that you're turning what you did before on its head. It leads to other ideas.
Sat lunchtime was the lovely Virgin Wine Show. Love the crowd and atmosphere.

Freshstarts

Let's go up North; leave the ghosts of the South. The last two years that have been written off on a personal level.
Saw a film last night; in Sutton near work. Saw old tv friends from 2004.
Sun worked with the kids; they like me.