What was pleasing on Christmas Day was that i didn't go out to get booze. Didn't go to the pub or off licence; i just wanted to stay in, didn't feel like having it,was bored of it. I didn't need it; had Martini Asti on Christmas Eve. There was some beer fomo but it's ok. Patterns don't have to be replicated. Foodwise you don't need to eat to the point of bursting; if it's good you'll be happy with the right level.

 You're used and others get the thanks. I'm using my cash savings. There is an escape route or reinventing route where you 'accept defeat'. Magic's coming back