Not till the impossible is done

Keeping my head above water; afloat, just about. I'm going for it; only going for things that i want to overcome. Not till the impossible is done. You can do it and you will do it. Could have done the same job two days in a row but wanted to prove myself in a different environment with new people. You don't have time to figure things out; it just needs to be done. Put me on the spot.

Stokes transcends cricket; defy belief. Have the burning ambition. Certain things will speak to you because inside you want to do them. Found a 12.5 hr shift easy; you're in the flow.

Yes a bit torn; would love to see the Gaelic football tomorrow at Wimbledon Irish Centre. Missing out on lots of people that like me; because of the past.
Certain things should have been said and done before. Some liaisons will never be the same. When a previous constant is not there you are left with moody, fickle. Luck is not your inclination. The same hymn sheet is a lovely thing. Look to what's good and new.

I couldn't face being in public tonight; didn't go to invites. Went to Shepherd's Bush after nearby work; she didn't understand my Notts.
Working near Ashford International later in the week. Never thought i'd be filming again after a year; i'd have been washed up on the shore of life-it's given me a second chance. So i'm putting my emotion into acting; I tapped into Kelly Macdonald. Worked with Lasco who's cleaned up his act, and Kevin who I hadn't seen in 10 years, I was so happy. The old timers; it was like an episode of New Tricks. My agent knows i'll do a job.
Breakfast was poached eggs, avo, spinach, veggie sausage. I'd got quite a lot from the day so an early retreat. Tomorrow will be a beautiful day.

The fine team were let down at work; get them in to do a job, then expendable. Most of them are young; I see in their eyes them thinking whether they've done the right thing..'which way do I go next?' I stopped round West Ham tube afterwards. I'm mentoring the next batch. Sometimes you're as good as your last job and there's a rock n roll crash. Reflective Sunday, not travelling far. Caught up with a friend visiting from abroad in Surrey Quays because we're loyal; gives life meaning.
Keep aspiring to new targets.
Sometimes people won't stick up for you. They are complicit in the silence. Maybe they're afraid.