The end from the beginning

Only want to go on a train to see family and friends; working from home would be lovely. I'm still tired from before lockdown.
Want to run with life and take it somewhere else; a new series of events. God holds the end from the beginning. I can still provide new life. Hiding is good; when things are uncertain, anything is possible. Runs are getting faster again and body feels less broken. Do i want a full time job again? Give thanks for the journey so far.

Only bought vegetables today; broccoli, butternut squash, parmentier potatoes, salad.

Blogging on a Saturday night

There's a cold weather shelter that offers hospitality; that's me, i could do that.

When sun becomes darkness it's a natural process; moon to blood is a bit more apocalyptic. Before we return to dust some of us have magic or stardust.

I have two friends who talk like Jim from Friday Night Dinner so it's hard to keep a straight face 'Why you smiling?' I'm working on the impersonation: 'Milson'.

One of my flatmates is now away isolating with his ex and the girl here frigs herself loudly when her fella phones so I'm going to be bored. Listening to soft, melodic rock like the Eagles, Def Leppard, Heart.
I've done more consistent running in lockdown than outside of it.

Is anyone buying data when you have wifi because you're not going far? So i got a cheap goodybag with unlimited texts and minutes.

Going through my veg; i just could not eat meat every day.

Pay the man

If i get 80% of my wages paid I'll have HMRC's babies. I'm not bored; I went for NHS volunteering but my application didn't go through. We battle on.

Did this film game online and i didn't know the latest directors and actors. I don't need to know; not insecure, a bubble's fine.

Watching Masterchef; someone did a 'deconstructed' rack of lamb. You have a natural shape there. I've done venison in chocolate sauce but want to try it with a cocoa crust. I can make lime mayo. Gregg missed the point of orisen; that's a Japanese poached egg. Deep fried quails egg can be done. Confit salmon; sounds lovely.

Video calls are the thing when we are marooned indoors; more to come.. A great dynamic.

Covidblog

When you have time to yourself your thoughts are clearer; you resolve issues from years ago through insight. All the noise from recent times has led to the silence of now. Apply love and passion to where you want to be.

Where are my homeless people going to be now that the shelters have to close? Daniel, Jen, Lulu, Sal hopefully housed in a hotel for now.

People spotting from the garden; in the sunshine while writing my diary.

How many lockdown runs can we do? Park is so nearby, as is food shop. Saw a hot runner on the way back too; across the Apocalypse. There's an hourly train to Nottingham but nowhere to go. We stay in; in the name of humanity and love. Deep meditations. I'm enjoying the release of cooking; storing ahead.

The NHS staff getting mugged for their badges? Who's on the front line? Chavs think they're the ones entitled to free food?
Food delivery vans getting torched; it's wilful and ugly. They're not adhering to social distance.

Generate excitement

To offset the slightly chaotic life i slept about 14 hours. I have some cooking ideas in mind. Dukkah is Egyptian.
Surprise in life. When things go your way; to see the people you believe in. Recharge yourself.
You feel yourself changing. There are interesting life stories and ambitions; a spark from somewhere.
I'll do a shift till 11pm and do karaoke at the end of it. Do different things. The more you take yourself out of your comfort zone the more you develop. Side hustles; do something once.