Complete lack of cooperation at work; exercise your options. They miss the point there. I'm there to rattle a few cages. Some people there must think i'm really stupid, a mong that doesn't notice things. There's no teamwork; esprit de corps. They think they're bigger than Deutsche Bank; they wouldn't last two minutes there. When i was in the City i was told every day that i'm the best finisher in the last 15 years. Here it's personal ego and one upmansship . Fighting back is frowned upon. When i get back i dive into cooking; some creative outlet. One of the head honchos is right; draw a line underneath things..but there's no change.
Have an early night.

Talk about being at the right place at the right time. After the bleary eyedness of early o clock and embracing the mystery of the project i was bamboozled by the A listedness in close proximity. The costume brief was a dream and i took choices; they didn't go for a ladyfriend's coat but liked me as i am. To be involved on a vibrant day; young, attractive crowd..only a few old timers like myself was unbelievable..everything fell into place. You recall your favourite scenes from the films that the actors were in. Learning from their reactions yesterday; how would i do it? The perfect antidote to occupational stress. Didn't need a comedown Sat night.

Some industrial stress but i'll be alright. It is when something you like doing ceases to be enjoyable for a period. It's not always the work but the surrounding factors and bullshit around it. Bad practice and attitudes are sprung. So the slightly backward step of weekend filming comes at an opportune time.

When Gary Neville embraced squatters it bought tears to their eyes and they said they will improve the property, not criticise him and big up City players.

I saw the one that got away look a bit older and a tear rolled down; we were meant to grow old together..the one who loved me.

What's wrong with being confident?

Good Sunday shift. Pulled the cleaner up; there'll be no using phone on my shift. There are two later trains on a Sun than in the week; well after 11.
Virgin Wine Show on Sat went splendidly; in Barbican one of my favourite buildings. Sparkling red anyone? Some excellent desert wine. This was in the afternoon; earlier went from Croydon to Stoke Newington to wish Nick Happy Birthday. I had a roast of the day; a rather large chicken. I could've gone to work Sat night.
Fri met up with friends who live in Thailand and the US; that flowed quite well. Recalled times from seven years ago. Yup put it into context this weekend.
Looking forward to Valencia; fine tuning the perspective. A day trip to Norwich, Woking 9 to 5. Been invited to Poole. Prague is a possibility. The weekend's rugby showed that the Six Nations standard isn't all that; the marauding Southern nations.

your plane

Not madly crazy at work so i was able to go to Cat Ba Island the Vietnamese place in South Croydon which opened today. It was busy, has nice decor. Went for a takeaway; tuna steak wrapped in banana leaf. Vietnamese is fragrant. But the home made chilli sauce blows your head off; will be going again. Was 20% off today. Tues night and i actually saw a dvd; Kingsman.
Turn tests into light and they'll make you rounded. You go hand in hand with time but some people are stuck in the past; they are not relevant. But your progress is your gift.

life's richness

Show your hand a bit less; or it'll be used against you in a court of unofficial law.
Sat worked for a few hours before East Croydon- St Albans. The fest opened at 11am; i went for the professional pride of it..i was asked to help. I'm a busy person so i do what i can. And John Otway was there; delightful. Have you tried having samosas on the move? Raita's messy; Mr Raita the Stereophonics song. St Albans; love the historic side..Verulam. There to Docklands no prob. Oktoberfest is a tradition and i like the Millwall Park venue; top atmosphere, a social catchup.
Part 4 on Sat; Island Gardens-Clapham High St..the Aberdeen crowd..loved it.

Sun worked early in the morning. Then the 119 to West Wickham where i got a lift to a wedding in Epping. Fallen into a good crowd; people not shafting me now. Lucky to love. Sometimes it feels like it's one good thing after another. Getting back tricky but ok; cabs to Woodford, bus to Shoreditch, then to Elephant..back in 2am.

Generate kindness. It's vibrational. The connections we make.