Sometimes one feels they don't have entitlement to their dreams, hopes and aspirations. Use energy and judgement wisely, correctly.

Let's ride into the sunset.

We know who's fireproof in life; Teflon where nothing sticks to them. The wrong people are ushered on 'Move along now; nothing for you here'.

Let's make films. Start the farewell tour. Fri night chilled. No rush to get to Clapham Junction. Bought chrysanthemums;£1.79 Lidls, flowers in Sainsburys..£3.50, a bottle of 2013 French Saint-Chinian to balance with dinner. No replicating previous cycles.

Beast

You're trying to sun it; and people disturb you..no-one respects your time. Or there's non stop criticism. You're forever waiting; for food orders.
Finally saw Sexy Beast. Love the scene when the Spanish boy puts a gun to Ben Kingsley. It opens up; when you say 'I'm not going to do that anymore' (gangster jobs) it manifests in people wanting to stick up for you; maybe not in my case. It's easy to hit Kingsley when he's down but someone took that first step.

Don't be left with just your silence.
I enjoyed working at the playcentre; it was a dream job.
The things you implore. The trips needn't be lonely.

Saturday- catching up on sleep, watching cooking programmes, cooking.
I was happy to come across Crest as you don't see it much. It's the sort of homebrew made in villages and makes you go blind.
Well you can't call me lazy. Working tomorrow at West Norwood Feast event. Chucking it down now.