Heart and energy

When you don't go to the gym for a little bit you feel a bit anxious so like tonight sometimes things choose you. Work finished unexpectedly early and I ran down. After work it's some me time; a reflection, meditation. Mixing running and the gym is a great idea; keeps you moving. You've already down your warm up when you get there. And there was a warm down in the rain as I made Lidl 9 mins before it closed. The gym makes you focussed, composed. There was determination; to counter the weekend. If you want to look good there has to be balance. Ran Sun night Streatham to Crystal Palace. When you are a bit more energised you do the chores the same night rather than the next morning. After some new places in Palace saw the end of the scintillating darts.

Sat did Blacken-Welling-London Bridge-Earls Court. Kent borders is a day out; went via Peckham Rye, not Central. Earlier i'd been barcode scanning at Parkrun; 5th volunteer job for them. The day wasn't rushed. I've met interesting people since Dec. Some ideas speak to you louder than others. At the single launch party in Earl's Court was doing some Bez shapes for the band. Cab back; sensible, saves time- it's direct.

Fri after work dropped into Boxpark, East Croydon. Made the convivial Dispensary just near Aldgate East station; East London, City crowd. One of the young guys said I had heart and energy-bless him.

This week should be good; on Fri Greenwich Market record fair and a leaving do catching up with some old faces.
Sat going to be in Sunderland and also looks like Newcastle with way forward people; I like North East guys.

Was meant to arrive at Waddon 8.40..it was 9.07; diabolical. First train cancelled, second one delayed 6 mins. Behind the 8-ball.
Can't leave work yet as one of the run events coming up has been postponed until Springtime.

Jim Carrey is now a recluse. I see that happening; the way forward. Andy Kaufman was very tortured. I had a notification that I've posted on Facebook for 83 days in a row. Is that supposed to inspire me? To get to 100 days? So I did reverse psychology and didn't post. I like the stat that my posts have been liked 49,000 times but not this one.
How much do you really enjoy things? You might like it for a while. Might like aspects of it.
'We are left out, seen as the same as before'. Let's go to the most meaningless things; and you might end up surprised for a more sustained period. I'll be cool under pressure.

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Was hoping to get sacked at work but wasn't.

Had a run tonight; a walk back, not the bus.

Want to see out of town Rick but it doesn't seem to be happening. I feel extraneous forces; too much has happened and sensibilities have changed.

I feel deflated. I don't have any opinions, enthusiasm. Bought some coldwater prawns.

Will be better soon; i'm trying my best.

Actually a bit horrified with Celebrity Masterchef; Ulrika poisoning with her lamb and cutting pears in half. Lesley Garrett thinking it's a singing show; she gained an unfair advantage by calling out that it was dessert to the company they worked in. Barney and Nick Moran's cooking was much more creative.
Not basing my personal life round the work that I don't like.
After work yesterday, the work that I do like, took a bus from West Norwood to Camberwell. Hermit's Cave is cosy. The 45 to Brixton.
Fri night Eid night a driver gave me a lift even though he wasn't in service. Couldn't sleep later.
Went for a run Sat morning. Was tired in the afternoon.