All sorts of leftover concoctions today; including sprouts and adding to poultry with game and seafood. Still fancy snowballs, port.

How you celebrate Christmas Day is up to you; not what society might stipulate. The day is a moment in time, linked to a bigger picture. Had a walk earlier and you could hear the silence; it was like floating. The tree branches through the sun. Was today joyous for people? I'd say yes. Dreams and memories were formed today. Plenty of good cheer. It's a time of miracles. The people that miss you. If you see angst on tv it has to be beautifully done. Revelations, surprises are both bad and good. There's so much more to be experienced that is good.

Paid leave today; had stollen. There's a tv crimbo party tonight. Wish i was going to Colombia in a few months with friends. Sunday up 7.45am. Half hour on the train to Brentwood. At Julie's it was a birthday so had cava, cake, breakfast rolls 10.30am. I've got bucks fizz for Crimbo Day. Trying to find a suitable mask for tonight.

People are always waiting for their next one; gripe, scrounge, computer session..each level not sated by the previous one. Through reinvention the horizon behind you becomes ever more distant. Wed went to Cannon St; Jamies is good..dance and crimbo music. The Folly one of my faves. Thurs night bought venison steaks.
Manifest and attract.

Gettin pissed off with people's vexatious behaviour: met a friend who i bought a snack; she's working full time as a dancer and what does she get me? Bugger all. Is this Thailand? She wanted to meet up again; i didn't reply. Rockstars say to the hangers on 'get me a drink'..nominal fucking gesture.

No scotch bonnets tonight; had some last night. Meditating.

Instead of going to Lisbon it'll be busy at work. With all the repeats promised on tv over Crimbo better off catching up on sleep ;-) There was potentially weekend filming at 5am in the Cold Outdoors; so Sat is my day off. Snake eye focus; when you think you'll flag is when you win.