Don't know how to feel; sometimes deflated like there's no anticipation. Valentine's Day is exciting right? You can read between the lines; a subtext for the future, maybe an unsustainable one. These are challenges. You shouldn't think something bad's going to happen.. I got some of the judgments wrong and put a lot on the line. It's like you want to do something but you don't.

Enough is enough; discredited online by someone's instability. 

For the family dinner yesterday (Sunday) i offered roast chicken, mash and green beans. Weekend noodle-mutton, mixed veg, prawns. Sri Lankan heat/spice is dry. Jacket potato and baked beans. Today i made Brazilian ox tail liver curry; reduced it so it's not chewy. Has a nice fattiness. 

Busy times coming; working 6 days a week for a month.

 Turn the stress and injustice into magic moments. Offer the logic. Nice transition from day job to an evening job tonight. Felt a buzz; i know i earned my money tonight- i know the value of it. Conscience is clear. I work harder. An exciting future awaits. Sharper, anticipate.

 Sure; some aspects of life are boring, repetitive. A new restlessness; but it's when you're using time more smartly. You are allowed.

 When my friend at work today said the Damned were playing i was stunned; everyone else on the bill was young and unknown. I coincided it with an actual break; i normally 'break' just to eat. They did Eloise. 

It was Sunday so had a two hour lie in; 7am today rather than 5am yesterday. Nice to create mini patterns. I requested and insisted that i go on the VIP bar; there were some dynamics in the other bar yesterday that i didn't like. VIP suits my ambitions and the self respect paid off.

 Looks like the anti- racists won tonight. We are one, united, stand together against what's wrong. Asian elders are peace makers. The EDL won't send any henchmen to Tooting, Brixton, Wembley. The Curry Mile in Manchester is hugely popular. You get people looting from Greggs, Primark. Disenfranchised daytime drinking in city squares; big bottles of cider.

 You see the mirror; the things that abhor you. Choose the right path. Have to be clear headed; you'll be attracted to what looks and feels right- lifestyle. It's about respect and self respect; then the good will happen.