So in the height of summer i was sat in the common with a can of street cider instead of meeting my wonderful London friends. Can't have 'toxic' habits.  I did a good job helping the running company move stuff from Surrey to Manchester; i don't duck responsibility at work or in life. You can reach where you need to; break it down, it's not insurmountable. Like in the cricket counter attack when you're in trouble; McCullum used to do that. Remember India in the first innings went from 98-5 to 416 and then Eng were 83-5; how do you win that? We would like things to happen and then they do. Shift perspective.