Feel so much better with a run after a 10 hr shift. A cup of tea, a shower, dinner. The warmth of the people I meet; hospitality for boarders which i may not always warrant in the bigger picture. Wish I was more independent before. 

Take it day by day; i don't need to do the job but I'm good at it. There'll be attempts to throw you in life. I'll go back home tomorrow and feel human again. Keep purging; there's been lucid dreaming.

 Sad when a project fails. Back to the base outline and fill it from there.