Stay with me till the end

Did some tv work in front of an audience; i was champing..get lost in performance. The a.d gave the most wonderful, relaxed smile; he said 'go for it'. I want the people who have fallen out with me to see me on tv. Haters gonna hate, potatoes gonna potate. Even when the skies seem the darkest, the stars continue to twinkle and shine. When you catch a falling star- hold onto it forever and never let it go. Some people leave scars and create damage. It's horrible when you are not needed in someone's life. Where all you say is misconstrued and feeds a well. When all you feel is love; and you want some part of them in your life. I don't want to offer excuses or elicit sympathy. Forgiveness means giving up all hope of a better past. If i feel crap, that's fine; i will honour that feeling.. not going to manufacture synthetic good feelings. It's how you feel at a moment in time. Our personal choices make or break us. Sometimes i feel i'm on my knees; looking for one last vestige of hope. I want light in my dark recesses. Very. Sad. Face. Maybe adversity brings out creativity. Seeking a higher balance. Giving someone i like the space she needs; no demands, i'm gentle.