the innermost

Fasting, sunbathing; it's a challenge. A test of the mind at the end of it; what will your reactions be? Stand by them.Interlinked with the universe.

When love goes wrong nothing goes right said Marilyn Monroe. People didn't want me to be with a beautiful girl who has made me a better person; it didn't serve their jokes when i was ready to step up. No more 'you fucked it up' or 'why weren't you invited?' or 'she has problems'.. jealousy abound. I was ready to quash the ex's badmouthing with action. I so nearly did it; was a real good go. Would have weathered any storms. When words become empty. I'm just about staying the right side of maudlin. I'll enjoy the battle even if it appears to be a losing one. Get what you want and what you need. Certain people should stay out of my business. I can't keep escaping. My heart feels wrenched. Haven't i been through enough? How many grand gestures are left in the world?